I can't believe that this topic has even been part of a conversation. I've never, in my entire life, thought that I would even think about me needing to be on disability. I'm not going to apply soon, but it's a serious discussion right now. "How long can I do what I love and be who I am without needing to be on SSDI?" has really been a question strongly thought about.
I'm working really hard to exercise, see the right doctors, and keep my thought process positive so I can do what I love for as long as I physically can. My fear is pain and dislocations. I've already experienced my left middle finger dislocating about 4 within 2 weeks, one of those times being during a sign language class. It can be easy to put it back in sometimes and other times its quite impossible. During that sign language class, I couldn't get my finger back in place for about an hour and a half and ended up needing ice on it for 5 hours after.
I don't like the discussion about SSDI because I'm a fighter. I'm a stubborn, determined, pain in the butt, who doesn't know how to truly quit something that has captured my heart. My prayer is that God allows me to live my dreams as long as possible. Once my body stops me and forces me to quit, I will quietly bow out. Until then, it's still a conversation crucial to have.
I'm working really hard to exercise, see the right doctors, and keep my thought process positive so I can do what I love for as long as I physically can. My fear is pain and dislocations. I've already experienced my left middle finger dislocating about 4 within 2 weeks, one of those times being during a sign language class. It can be easy to put it back in sometimes and other times its quite impossible. During that sign language class, I couldn't get my finger back in place for about an hour and a half and ended up needing ice on it for 5 hours after.
I don't like the discussion about SSDI because I'm a fighter. I'm a stubborn, determined, pain in the butt, who doesn't know how to truly quit something that has captured my heart. My prayer is that God allows me to live my dreams as long as possible. Once my body stops me and forces me to quit, I will quietly bow out. Until then, it's still a conversation crucial to have.
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